Been a little while since I've done a journal update, but a fair amount has happened since then I guess. I am days away from living on my own once again, my ex and I have not been together for over a month and though I will miss her, I know this is the right thing.

Will most likely be disowning my mom shortly, my brother and I seem to be a unending burden on her and are ungrateful spoiled little brats as well. Though I have not been with Bethanie in over a month and am moving ON MY OWN, she still blew a gasket when I mentioned I needed help with money and she did not want to keep paying for me to be in unhealthy relationships, dunno how that came out of me saying "I'm not with anybody" but hell, who cares.

I can start moving out on the 6th, I however still have to fork up the 515 for rent, plus our other utilities and random bills, plus bills at my new place. Bethanie will at most only be able to pay most of her half of the rent, so I'm going to be fucked, but oh well.

On the brigher side of things, once I'm out I will not have to worry about getting somebody's elses half of bills, not have to worry about my ex randomly coming over and giving me anxiety. And if all goes well I will be in a all new, very exciting relationship with a girl I am very fond of, my life is going to be alot better once I'm out of here.

I have not yet met this girl in real life, but man I wish I could have, from all other ways of knowing about her she seems great, fun loving, caring, somebody I should have been with in the first place, our first meeting will be the final peice in the puzzle of our life together, but we're both hoping for the best. I hope we get together and live happily for however long we can. Thanks for being there, Jennifer